losing mass in every moment
doesn’t feel like I’ll ever get over it
time’s passing by but I’m here frozen
my heart and mind in constant conflict
if it’s not meant to be then I’m not missing out
all you’ve brought into my life is clouds of self-doubt
I felt worthless and useless, forgot how to act
every tie cut had a secret string attached
and I know I’ll never get the chance to tell you
so when you left, here’s what I went through
I lost ten pounds in a week and a half
I didn’t know that my body was capable of that
your absence taught me how to sleep in the middle of the bed
not physically present, but you won’t get out of my head
and I’m only afraid to give up the fantasy
because then I don’t know what would be left of me
every night I’d hope to see you at my door
don’t know why I believed what you said before
and now I’m devastated again that I’ve lost you
I always believed it when you said you loved me too
