I wish I could fall in love with myself
as fast as I’m able to love everyone else
I keep trying to shuffle the cards I’ve been dealt
But I think I could use a little bit of help
It’s the almost will always haunt me
The constant wonders of what we could be
The thought that we could have made it
A connection I never thought I’d have to quit
Now I’m scattered into a thousand pieces
And all I’m looking for is one good reason
Why would you walk away from so much compassion
Say you love me, then leave me wondering how this could happen
I’ve been polite with the pain that you caused me
The residue of my life is all that’s left for you to see
And you’ll never fight it because you agree
Every night you went home to her you wished it was me
I’ve made peace with the pieces you shattered me into
Put myself back together like I’m brand new
Can you honestly say that when you go to bed at night
You don’t reminisce of when our bodies were intertwined?
Eventually you’ll comb back through the memories
Regret how you treated me
Right when it’s too late to see
That you should’ve owned up to loving me
I remember everything you promised
And how you’re not capable of being honest
Even if you were, it wouldn’t hurt any less
For two years I let you make my life a mess
You’ll drive by and pretend like it’s normal
I’ll swallow my pride and do my best to be cordial
Your actions are forgiven, but your access is denied
You no longer add any value to my life
